I have a bit of news ... I left Master Ethington on Sunday. I was saddened that I had to make that decision; but his level of alcoholism was beyond what I was willing to accept in my life. He made decisions for me while intoxicated that put me at risk ... having oral sex with a guy who had gonorrhea (Master knew, I didn't), having sex with an HIV positive man (mind you I don't have a problem with that, I have a problem with the fact I was not informed.), and other similar risks.
Maybe I simply haven't had enough experiences being a 24/7 slave to understand what a Master is.
I always believed a Master was supposed to exemplify the very best of what it means to be a Man; like Sensei. Maybe that's too Japanese? Too high brow?
Yes. I know there are Masters who are simply Masters during particular sexual activities. That the Master/slave dynamic was role playing ... albiet hardcore role playing.
So, for all of you out there, tell me what a Master is.
For that matter, what is a slave? I question whether I know or understand .. despite years of being in this community. I question whether I am simply submissive in bed or more "servant"-like. Does my simple need / desire to have my cock locked up by another man and give him my body for his sexual use make me a slave? or just a kinky bastard?
PS. Before I left Master made me strip and he unlocked my cock for the first time in 60 days saying that since I was no longer his property I shouldn't be locked. I've spent the past 2 days unlocked. I didn't get hard (too much stress) nor did I play with myself. I had some red patches of irritation (probably from never having the device off and letting my cock "air out" for a day here and there). Yesterday, though, I felt my horniness coming back and, because the skin irritation hadn't cleared up yet, I put my old Jail Bird on and snapped on the lock. I laughed at myself because it felt so good to be back in the cage.
Anyway, thanks to all of you for reading and commenting. We are a fantastic community of men, men who have chosen to give our cocks, our orgasms to another and we need to support each other and share our experiences.

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