As many of you know, I have had only one (disastrous) experience with a "Master" and have pretty much been alone and lonely for a long time. I have tried to stay true to my chastity fetish but there's nothing like giving oneself to another.
I wrote about my experience with him the other day (http://lockedndenied.blogspot.com/2012/10/getting-used.html) and we have chatted quite often since. As we've gotten to know each other more I have grown to trust him to teach me what it means to be a slave and how to express my "slave-itude."
I have not had many opportunities to express my sexual needs and desires ... mostly due to fear, partly due to my MidWestern Catholic upbringing.
Suddenly, I find myself awash with feelings of "freedom?" having taken the first steps. Even though, from our very first meeting, he has challenged me to meet my fears head on ... like, walking around in public with my shirt off. Easy for most .. but not I. Still working on it ... but the fact HE wants it makes it a little easier for me to do it.
I have dreamed of "being used" of "being a slut" of being pimped out ... and Sir Ethington has already told me it will all happen.
As a matter of fact, after my Master Chef audition I will go to him and serve him. He had told me that he wanted to take me to Palm Springs and force me to be naked in front of others. He said he would have me service other men at His behest. THEN we find out that this Sunday is Gay Pride ... meaning MANY more men will be in town and hornier than ever. I now wonder if I bought enough condoms!
I have NEVER felt so FREE as I do now.
For those of you who have been lurkers as I have been or who have simply been too timid to express yourselves fully ... I urge you ... DON'T WAIT! Do NOT let life slip you by while you pine away at porn and dream of the "perfect" opportunity. Join Recon, join FetLife ... and take that chance and reach out to a Master or Mistress and TRY! Otherwise you will live in regret and fear and self-loathing.
Love you all!
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